Inspired by Whitney Arlene, in January I created a syllabus for myself to give some direction and focus to the quarter-life crisis/navel-gazing/figuring out I’ve been doing. I gave myself readings, writing assignments, projects, and several classes/courses and activities. Each month I write an update on my progress. Click here to view the syllabus.
I can't believe it's been a month already. It feels like both 6 months and 6 days. Looking back, January was a very introspective and productive time. February has been stolen from me by outside demands, hahaha.
It's interesting to observe how that happens - as the schedule builds up (mostly in an effort to build reserves to pay for shit later on down the road this year : wedding, honeymoon, kitchen), the first things I fall off on are my blog, and the more introspective, care-taking parts of this syllabus.
I've been really motivated to keep up with Ramit Sethi's I Will Teach You to be Rich material (it's been so helpful I'm crazily even considering his Earn 1k course), primarily because it's financially motivated - and so am I right now. That's awesome, and was definitely a focal point of the syllabus, but I guess what concerns me is that this month's preoccupation with do, do, do! is cutting into the thinking, feeling, discovering aspects.
For the last week or so, I've felt almost uncomfortable sitting down with Mondo Beyondo material, even though I know dreaming is an important foil to doing--something I felt powerfully during slower, calmer January. Mondo's almost over and if I take Earn 1k, I'm going to have to be mindful in cultivating the other side of this syllabus.
(I also should probably get on top of all that reading I gave myself. Hah. Lesson learned there – just shell out the cash and buy the books ahead of time. Seriously, why is placing an Amazon order something I agonize over?)
Not unlike a Mondo Beyondo list, I actually didn't look at my syllabus for weeks – not until I was deciding what to do about Earn 1k. But looking back over it to see how E1k fits in, I was surprised by how directly related it is. I can't help but think this may well be one of the universe nudges in the right direction. But of course, all the old fears of being "scammed" or spending a lot of money on something educational that doesn't get me anywhere (*coughcollegecough*) rise up anyway…
Last summer I made a choice not to fork over a ton of cash to do a literary retreat with my favorite author of all time. For a week or so I really stressed over the decision and although I had the money something just didn't feel right. I don't know if I wasn't ready to confront my hero or my own fear of being a writer, but I wasn't ready to go.
And then I had a filling fall out, and suddenly it seemed like I made the perfect choice and I could happily put the same cash towards fixing my long-suffering teeth. And I did. And it feels amazing to have ticked one of the last things I've been struggling with for 6+ years off the list. (Not that remembering to appreciate my new functional teeth properly lasted for more than a week.)
But now I feel like it might be time to invest in me again. Because to be honest, along with the debt, and the car, and the teeth, and the house, the other thing that's been nagging me for most of college and beyond is this so-called-career of mine…